Oh the tears!

I am going to cry so much!! I will have my very last week as an Outdoor School student leader. When I get on that bus to go to Namanu, I will be a 5th timer. But, I will leave as a proud 6th timer that has just completed the biggest part of her life. I will do my best that week, and push myself to do even better. I will bond with all the other student leaders and make friendships that will last a lifetime. I will spend as much time with the staff as I can, because I know that there is a possibility that I will never see them again. I will sing my girls to sleep every night (even though I suck at singing) with the song If You Love Me, because I want them to know how much it all means to me. I will teach my heart out to make sure the 6th graders have as much fun learning as I do teaching. I will spend every minute of social hour taking in all the amazing things I'm going to miss. I will make that dreaded walk on Friday. I will look at all the staff, knowing they mean the world to me and hoping they know too. I will get to Sequoia. I will look at her and the tears will start (if they haven't already). Sequoia is the only tie I have left to Adams. She has been my PM for two sessions. I have worked with her on water field study. I have connected with her. She is the main person I look up to at ODS, and the "real world". I will look at her and she will look me in the eyes like she always does. And I will break down. I will cry like I never have before. I will receive my 6th timer award. I will hug whoever is nearby. Then, I will pull myself together to send the kids off with happy memories. I will (reluctantly) get on the bus to leave. I will say good bye to my life as I know it. I will say my final good byes to my family. And my legacy as a student leader will be over. I am so thankful for ODS, without it, I would be miserable.